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Sacrifice
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
When I am facing with difficulties or problems, you were always the one I go to, to pour out everything about how I feel and stuff. but this time, the issue is not about other people. I don't know who to turn to now. I'm glad that I can still smile and act as if nothing has happened in front of my friends. I think I've become stronger. I don't whether I should be happy for that-..- You were sitting beside me, but the feeling is like we're worlds apart. We can't even hold a proper conversation for more than 30secs. This feeling is killing me. I think my heart has the numb feeling until i don't feel it aching already. I've been sleeping a lot during the day. But i just can't fall asleep at night. I thought sleeping will take a little unhappiness away from you when you're awake? I slept so much during the day, why didn't it work? I feel so lonely at times. The feeling is like I'm gonna breakdown any moment, because one of the most important pillar in my life is gonna collapse any time now. Must I really sacrifice again this time round....? If it makes you happy, i will. I have been really thinking through whether I must really do this. Weeping while thinking about the things i plan to say. I hope I won't drop a single tear when I say it tomorrow or something. Gosh, I am tearing while I'm typing this. Bye.
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sigh
Monday, July 04, 2011
Is this really how we gonna spend our 10th month together? ): |
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Broken
Sunday, July 03, 2011
I thought hurting, disappointing, making her feel uncomfortable would be the last thing a guy would do to his girl?That sentence really killed me. No matter how angry you're, you shouldn't have said that. You shouldn't have said that.... I can't tweet about this. I can't write this on Facebook. I don't want people to know or ask me about it. I don't think people still read my blog, so it should be okay to write here. Yup, I'm very hurt and sad. If sleeping can ease the pain, I'm willing to sleep forever. But I still need to make sure that you're taking your meals and sleeping on time and that I'm there when you need me. Sigh, I hate myself. I should learn to love myself more. Tomorrow is our 10th month together. What a good way to start tomorrow ):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):): |
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Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you♥
Saturday, June 25, 2011
 You brought colours into my life♥ Having a break now! Damn tiredddd! Hmmmm. What should I blog about.. I think after that incident, I tried to adjust the way I think and view stuff. Yeah, I'm not as demanding and I don't get angry so easily anymore (: And I hope that we can be stay like this forever ^^ Erm, I reflected on myself.. On what I did, said, thought, etc. I realized my mistakes and yeah, I'm determined to change for the better. Or at least try to? I think I'm too sensitive. But that's just my character, it is hard to change. But I will try. Yup, just wanna say that I am happy with whatever that's happening now (: Like I can concentrate on studies and relationship at the same time. And I really hope that it will stay that way until the A levels end, and become even better after A levels! Having good communication, trust and being honest with each other are really the key to a successful relationship. |
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TIMBRE WITH THE GIRLS. STEAMBOAT WITH UBA
Friday, June 24, 2011
HI. I POSTED ALL THE PHOTOS THAT SSLB AND I TOOK AT SENTOSA! GO TO THE POST TO VIEW.Long time since i last blogged. Shall just blog those important dates! Thursday, 170611. Went to Timbre (Arts House) with the girls!<3 First time there. Erm... It was kinda cool I suppose. Celebrated Judith's birthday! And took photos!!! Hope we will meet up more often after Alevels! (: At night, met sslb to go home. and I got to eat the super nice dou hua that he bought for me<3 Aiya, the photo in my phone. UPLOAD ANOTHER TIME!!!!!       SILKY HAIRRRR (: (the right photo) hehe.   Long island tea     BIRTHDAY GIRL :D     . . . . . Friday, 180611. Went out with UBA to celebrate Judith's and Hui2's 18th birthday <3 Went to some steamboat buffet at Marina Square, NOT NICE ):< Anyway had a great time with them too. Like so long never meet up already. The feeling is like....I don't know how to describe. Just love them a lot. Hope we can meet up soon!               . . . . . . THAT'S ALL!!! WAH post until i tired. Now it is just study study and study ): Persevere! 5 months! I can do it!!! >:) |
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Easily contended
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Had my longest conversation with sslb today! I don't know why but I feel happy. Yeah, just happy... But I know it will be only for today for now :/ Anyway, sslb shared with me his experience at the check up for NS thingy. So funny. Hahahaha. I want to go Chinatown with him to eat good food tooooooo! I want to go everywhere with himmmm! (:Gonna go sleep now! Meeting the girls tomorrow!!!! <3 |
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T.I.R.E.D
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Feel sick and weak now ): Normally during this kinda period, I really want attention. I don't know why, I just want your attention. Sigh. Yes I can sense that you are concerned about me but can't feel that you are worried. Maybe you are but I can't feel it through the text? I think people who message or talk to me must really take note of their tone and words they use because I'm very sensitive when it comes to this. Very tired la. Need remind you to reply everything that I've sent, need remind you to be sweeter, need remind friends to pay up for birthday presents, need remind this remind that. Don't want to care about anything for now. Yes one simple word, tired. Why am I feeling so tired? Slogging like hell just to make everyone happy. I've always been nice to other people. Why do I deserve all of this? Why can't the things that i yearn for just come to me? Do what all of you all want to do. I really don't care anymore. Yes, it is really difficult for me. Can you please, please make everything easier for me by just playing your part? I don't know if I typed out all these out of anger and disappointment. But at least, that's how I feel at this very moment. Sleeping time, goodnight. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.P.s I know the things that you have done for me, just that I never list them out only <3 |
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SENTOSA♥
Monday, June 13, 2011
Went to Sentosa in the afternoon! Lucky it wasn't that sunny yesterday! Nice weather (: Took lots of photos! Hehe, walked bare-footed along the beach with sslb!♥ One of my dream was to take a stroll along the beach with the guy i like. And it came true! hehe. Challenged each other to design something, using sand, for each other. I think that sslb can do better, and not use lazy as the reason :/ The feeling of sitting along the beach and watching the beautiful scenery with sslb was awesome. Nothing can ever replace the time that we have spent with each other♥                       Went to 7 eleven to get cup noodles while we waited for the sun to set. sslb still remembers that watching sunset with the guy i like was 1 of my 18 wishes! ^^ But sadly, there wasn't any sunset yesterday ): But it's alright, it was still a great day :D    Went to wash up before going to Marché for dinner. The dining atmosphere was very nice too. Feels like we were having candlelight dinner. Hehe. After dinner, we went to the open space outside Marché to talk and i think we really enjoyed each other presence (:    Really had a very memorable and unforgettable trip to Sentosa with sslb! Although I had the worst train ride, in my whole entire life, home and i didn't get my 2 notes, I still enjoyed my day. I think i should receive more than 3 notes the next time we meet? Actually to me, it doesn't really matter where we go, as long as he's with me, anything or anywhere is alright♥ After talking with my cousins another day, I'm just really really afraid that he might leave me one day :/ Can someone please tell me what should I do? Today was like BACK-TO-REALITY already ): Back to studies. Sigh. Finally got my excuse letter for 2.4km run! But I can't wear slippers anymore ): Alright, time to sleep! I WILL upload the photos soon! I will stay as long as I can see that you are putting in effort to make me stay by your side. I want to be someone important in your life. Someone that you will think of every second. Is this too much? |